You would think, wouldn't you?
August 19, 2007 at 9:18 AM
by Ashleigh
That I would have so much to say that this blog would be overflowing with the equivalent of verbal diarrhoea, but then in typed format. You would be wrong.
I've decided that as the quantity of extramural activities increases, the amount of time left over for reflection and self-absorption reduces exponentially.
So a 10% increase in outside activities leads to a 90% decrease in self-absorption.
Quite good really if you're a person who doesn't like to dwell. Not so good if you want to write.
So life got in the way. I guess I should tell you about it. Just highlights, otherwise we'll be here all day.
On Wednesday, I went to the physio and lo and behold, my ankle is healing. Absolutely incredible! A year of achilles tendonitis and finally, we have a solution.
I'm not sure if the solution has been the sexy support sock I now need to wear, or just a major change in my motivation, or my mental state, or hormones, or losing a bit of weight, or maybe Roger has magic hands. Maybe Roger should claim the official title of the 'Ankle-Whisperer'.
I don't know.
All I know is that it's getting better!
The reason that I can be 100% sure that it's getting better is that I made it to the gym twice this week and I did a full work-out and it hasn't hurt.
I'm not stopping the physio though. In May when I got back from France I was almost pain-free and I decided I didn't need to go anymore. Within a month it was back to painful hell.
On Wednesday and Thursday I was in Aalsmeer doing my flower class. It was great! I made some new friends, which is always good.
We had two days of instruction, with some of the most awful flowers I have ever had the misfortune to be in the same room with.
Nonetheless they were useful for teaching the technique. Mostly because they were so awful that if you didn't have a decent technique you would want to throw them away.
We made a spiral bound bouquet, a linear bouquet, and a thing in one of those metal holders. I say 'thing' because I'm not sure that anyone would ever want to make one of those from choice.
I'm now meant to decide if I want to do the professional course, which is every Thursday between now and May. It's quite costly and would mean I'd be working pretty much for free this year to cover the costs while I study.
Decisions, decisions.
Friday I took the kids to work with me, then we went to the Geitenboerderij to meet the lovely Nina and Chris and gorgeous Milla.
We had coffee, the kids played and then it started to rain and we had to leave. It was fun meeting them and hopefully we can do it again sometime.
I got called in the afternoon from the after-care to tell me there is a place for the kids for Friday afternoons. The big question is whether I can get over my mommy-guilt and let them go to aftercare while I work on Fridays or if I'm going to succumb to my emotions and decide that I can't?
I know they're growing up and that one afternoon a week in the aftercare won't kill them and that they will, in fact, enjoy it immensely, but the guilt-monster is just behind me, waiting to eat me up. No-one told me that being a mom would mean I had guilt as my constant companion! I mentioned this to my mom last week and she said 'oh, yes and when they get older it gets worse.' It gets worse!? Can it actually get worse?!
Yesterday was Joe's birthday! My baby turned 5. Beautiful darling.
I worked in the morning and then in the afternoon we had a party! I'll write a separate entry about his special day.
So you see, no time for self-absorption. For which I am sure at least half of my readers are eternally grateful.
Comments
You may call it self-absorption, but that's absolutely not how it comes across, Ash! I love your writing and look forward to your postings.
We had a great time yesterday - thanks again for having us! :)
Contemplate all you want, it is often quite recognizable.
Don't worry about the guilt ; you'll have it not matter what you do and you have to defend your decision to others (and yourself) no matter what you choose.
Go ahead and do it! Marjolein is right, spot on. And this comes from a Mom who always was afraid to go ahead, let guilt take the high way. You have the opportunity now and the means, so what's keeping you
Oh my... I can't wait for the photos from Joe's birthday!
Very glad to have met you in person. Your boys are so good looking - you should thank God I am over 20 years older :-))!
XXX
Sometimes it's great when life gets in the way of blogging and you're out there doing instead of writing about it.
I like it too when the lull comes and I can absorb the action and write about it.
Glad your ankle is better. They'll be fine in aftercare for an afternoon - don't worry...and will someone please tell me that, because I still suffer from that same old guilt thing too.
Grin, I remember I felt guilty when I stopped working after the birth of kid nr 2, because the oldest liked childcare so much.
I really feel for you and your ankle as I have been suffering in a similar way - what was thought to be tendonitis turned out to be bursitis (inflammation of the bursa under the Achilles tendon) and it has taken literally months to get better. And now I've got to build my calf muscle back up as it has faded away after months of hobbling around. Still on the bright side I'm now able to demonstrate(to a limited extent) drills in my netball classes! Good luck with your healing.
Whatever you have to say/write is interesting Ash!
Wish I had the prose to have continued my blog on but somehow life has a weird way of upsetting everything!
August 19, 2007 9:35 AM