Ash,

That documentary was actually filmed in the hospital 10 miles up the road from where I live. I know the hospital very well, and I used to live in Gillingham till I moved to Sittingbourne. My mother does still live there. Believe me its a horrible town, I hate it.

Unfortunately I didn't see the documentary - I wasn't sure I would be able to handle it.

I am glad your mum made a complete recovery, but sorry the film brought back many unhappy memories for you.

*Hugs*

Yes it was harrowing - sadly I lost my cousin aged 38, to alcohol, it was and is a life lesson I won't forget.

I cannot imagine Ash. We have a history of alcoholism in my family too, but it has not directly influenced my life. Thank you for sharing this. I'll be sure to look for it on this side of the pond.
Fondly,
K

I'm glad you still have your mom, too, Ash. Sorry you had to re-experience some of those awful feelings, but that surely is the hallmark of a good documentary.

My brother is also an alcoholic. It's a horrible disease.

I am in a group we quit drinking at http://wqd.netwarriors.org/
Please visit our forum.
Cheers

How wrenching to have the film dredge up your memories and anguish, though I'm glad it gave you an added appreciation for your mother's recovery and maybe insight into what she went through as well as what you did.

i am a reletive of one of people who died in the film so i can fil for all of you who watched the film thank you and ihope it has helped you all a grateful mum

Love your post, and all your blog, specially your recepies!!!

What a moving story regarding your mother. Like you I saw the documentary and was horrified. I am a member of AA and have been for some 26 years and yet still I go back and have a binge. The film showed me the swelling of the stomach and the swollen ankles - exactly what happened to me 3 weeks ago. I have just started to feel a little normal. I was not hospitalised but could not do it cold turkey. The film frightened me to death and I must get a copy of it because watching it rather than hearing stories certainly brought it home to me - drink is a poison to me and I will die.

I am so pleased your mother is recovering and may she continue to do so a day at a time.

Much love

Catherine

If anyone knows how I can get a copy of Rain In My Heart id be eternally grateful.

I too have been looking for a copy of it, please tell me if you know where I can get one too.
Thanks.

ive been looking for a copy of this for my mum for the last few weeks and i finaly found it

all the best mick

[Ash says: Leave a comment if you want more information on where to find it]

I would be really interested in seeing a copy of this film. I'm also a member of the WQD (we quit drinking) forum.

thanks
Eddie

I have not seen the film! people around me are telling me about it, but does anyone know where i can get a copy!! ??? any help would be fantastic.

Is it possible to let me know where I can find a link to it? I really need to watch it because we have a question on it for the exam. Please let me know!!!

thanks for letting me know someone took the link off. Do you happen to know who that person was who had the link? maybe I could contact that person than and arrange something. sorry for puttingyou through this trouble.
thanks anyway!!

I know Im kinda late on the scene here, but I read of the doco in a Melbourne, Victoria, Australian publication, "Family Drug Help". Like you, my life has been touched by the alcoholism of a family member. Again, if there's a chance of getting hold of a copy of the doc., I'd be ecstatic.....

Best regards, Peter

Hi all you can obtain the documentary through torrents here is the link http://www.mininova.org/tor/783587
good luck

Hi, hope your mum is still doing well. I watched the documentary last night and cried my eyes out. My boyfiend died 8 weeks ago aged 35 from alcoholism and it has torn my heart out. I can't type any more because I'm at work and don't want to start crying here ;o)

May I say what a wake-up call - I think this documentary should be shown to all pupils from the age of 14 or so in schools to show the effects of having that first drink. I know for a fact that had I seen this - I would have been totally scared and even better, informed of what drink really will do to you - kill. How sad that 2 of the participants died - for the maker, it must have been so difficult to stand back and watch. I too have a family member whos an alcoholic and I'm so keen to get a copy of this documnetary for them to see, and hopefully provide a wake up call to them. I know it's up to them to make their own minds up - but as this has had such an impact on me, I can only hope that it does the same to them. I haven't drank since Christmas last year and I can say without any doubt - I will never put my body through another binge again. How naive was I to think that once you stop drinking your liver will repair itself, little did I know until last night, that once the damage is done that's it. I can only hope that more people have been affected by this and that something good can come out of the fact that 2 people had to die.

I watched this show last night. I'd never realised before just how awful alcoholism can be.

Wow what an amazing documentary! but in the same breath, made me feel that sick empty feeling deep within my stomach, as i have just recently watched my father suffer from this diseases, and the most heart breaking thing was.. there was nothing i could do, but watch my father slowly die, and that in its self was enough for me, i feel that the devastating effects from this diseases, just isn't helped, nor is it supported by the system.. if the underlying problems which these people feel, there is nowhere to turn to, and that they are FORCED TO DRINK THERE PROBLEMS AWAY, rather than fight the losing battle towards, getting the help which should be available to support the suffers and try to get to the bottom of the GREMERLINS Which are hidden deep within the subconscious mind, but instead i felt the problem was, that this system chooses to ignore the growing numbers on which this deadly disease has now become, and i along with many others who have had to watch a loved one suffer at there own mercy, that there was no help prior to the forthcoming suffering, which eventually creeps up on them, and then its too late, its unrepairable, the only thing i feel i have left to do from absolutely devastating experience is to try and stop this from happening again and again.. but until last night, when i saw the documentary i didn't know where to even begin on how to get the points across of how painful and deadly this process is, but there i saw the full reality of this on my TV, which i feel should be forced upon people to see the dangers this brings on them, but that's not just where the suffering hits but it has a agonising impact on the family's, I'm not sure whether it was just how i felt, but with the frustration of not only trying to get through to my father, that i didn't want, what i know was going to happen, but to get the support he needed to try and prevent this from happening just wasn't there, and i was close to a nervous breakdown which then i needed to ask myself the question.. Do i turn to drink or do i fight for whats right, SANITY which i almost lost all because nobody would listen, it was as if "oh an alcoholic" treatment: HELP YOUR SELF OR DIE now i ask myself if i was in that situation of feeling the way my dad and many of the suffers must feel, where i felt i had to drink to forget the sadness or forget the difference between reality and non reality that i was feeling, and there isn't anything to make it better only drink more..would i want to live? no i don't think i would, i know my dad didn't, he told me enough times, and god that hurt so much, it was like he was telling me he was going to commit suicide but standing on a chair with a rope round his neck waiting for the push.. and the push soon came.. but it was then when he realised it wasn't what he wanted when the time came, he didn't really want to die, he just wanted to be noticed, and in the end he was but not as the person he was but as the guy who died through drinking! and that's the question i hate, is when people ask me "what did he die of?" and then comes the reply "oh did the bottle get a hold of him, what a shame, yeah he was a nice person without the drink" not what i want to hear! i wish there could be more of this documentary shown to make people see the effects of this illness, but also the youngsters to make them aware of the effects of alcohol and then see if when youngsters are drinking on the streets and feeling all big and clever, i wonder if they would feel like that if they where to watch what it actually can do to you! we all hear the warnings about drugs and smoking but what we don't hear about is the raising deaths due to the results of this social-able time we spend having drinks with our friends which can easily turn into a death trap, and all that needs to be done is to try and help prevent this is to make people aware of the illness, instead of the ignorance, and what annoys me, is people don't associate people with depression as being disgusting or neither are they told to get a grip of there lives, but an alcoholic is the same, its just they choose to deal with it in a different way, to those who suffer from depression, and that's where the different support is available, its sad when you get the feeling that the response will be that of a negative one, when the word alcoholic is mentioned, no wonder the sufferers find it hard to admit that they are an alcoholic, or to better the condition, as i like to put it, "a sufferer of alcoholism"

ITS TIME TO MAKE A STAND AND SHOW PEOPLE HOW WE ALL SUFFER FROM THIS AND IT DESPAERATLY NEEDS MORE TO BE DONE TO HELP TREAT THE ILLNESS RATHER THAN DISCISE IT.

IM MEMORY OF MY DAD TERRY, WHO I LOVED AND MISS SO DEERLY X X X RIP

KELLY IN PRESTON

I was able to download the documentary on Limewire to watch it. I am a casual drinker but you can bet that documentary made me think about my own habits. It was horrible to watch those suffer but it was also an eye-opener for me. God bless those that are suffering with alcoholism, because it is their own private hell. They should show this documentary over the US airwaves. My hope is that many alcoholics will attempt to find sobriety and serenity.

i personally would like to thank every one for their comments about the film rain in my heart i am the wife of the gentlman who died i would like to let you all know that i am doing fine and my are well to also to let you know that the producer of the film won best documentary at the bafta award ceromony on wed 10 oct 2007 thankyou kath

I have been trying to locate a copy of this film since last year.
I also saw it reviewed in an Australian publication, Family Drug Help.
I've tried the link someone suggested, but wasn't available
please help!!!!

Hi, I would like to recomend a forum for Non alcoholics in an alcoholic relationship, visit www.empoweredrecovery.com its the best information I ever read, such a help for the sufferers of anothers drinking.

Yes, I watched this both times they were screened. I thank my lucky stars that I found recovery in AA before I went down that far. What this showed me was the complete power that denial has over the practicing alcoholic/addict, because the same can be said for drug addiction. The reasons given by the young woman who unfortunatley dies was -- "I drink because I'm bored!" typical denial kicking in about her condition.

I too think that this should be shown in schools as part of an anti-alcohol abuse policy. It might not persuade all, but if it persuades a few from abusing alcohol, then so much the better.